sometimes

you just got to let go and realize you are alone and there is no one there for you.

i don't know how much longer i can go on like this. "/

Life.

This past month has had it's ups and downs. It's been more rough than I would have liked. Here's hoping next month will be much better.

Tumblr.

So I made a Tumblr. I'm finding out why people love it so much.

http://emmyhasagun.tumblr.com/

And no, it's not a Liam Neeson dump, despite appearences...

Liam Neeson

So, I'm currently in the midst of a Liam Neeson addiction. Gone 4 days straight watching only movies he's in. I can't help it.

And I won't lie, he's fucking hot... even if he is old enough to be my dad.

A Review of Noir and "I'm Only Human Sometimes" Music Video

Words fail me when it comes to William Control’s new album and music video. For once it’s not a good thing.

The Album
Although not a total loss, Noir is a pretty big disappointment. Many of the songs lyrics feel hockey and forced and the music is less unique than Hate Culture. Over all it has a gimmicky feel, as if he’s forcing the music to fit a stereotype. Some of the songs sound more like noise than music and a couple of them make me question why I bother listening at all.
“Why Dance With The Devil When You Have Me?” stands out as probably the most annoying song. It doesn’t sound remotely like anything I’d expect to be on a William Control CD. And the rap towards the end just makes it worse.
But not every song is a total waste. The one that beautifully stands out as a reason to get Noir would be the title track, “Noir.” It’s a ballad of metaphoric lyrics beautifully accompanied by piano. The lyrics are magnificent and are a shining example of what William could do. The question is, why didn’t he do it with the rest of the album?
When “Noir” ends, it’s seamlessly goes into the next track, “Epilogue.” The beginning of this song is the piano from “Noir” played in reverse accompanied by the sound of rain. Than the epilogue starts, which is in fact the epilogue of the 2004 film, The Libertine. Fans will note that the track “Prologue” on Hate Culture is also taken from this movie. This adds a sense of connection between the albums and is a fitting end to the CD. Or would be were it not for the annoying hidden song at the end of it.
Overall I expected much, much more from the album. I know William can do better. I just hope that if he makes a third album, that he learns from this and makes the music we know he can make.

The Music Video: “I’m Only Human Sometimes”
Where to begin? This left me speechless, but not in a good way. There were so many things that felt wrong about it.
First the story of the video was pretty predictable. I’ve never watched a music video with a story and was able to predict it. And using the whole drugged, having some organ stolen, waking up in a bathtub with a note to dial 911 is cliché and not in anyway original.
Second, William is married and making out and appearing to have sex with 2 different women in the video made me feel like I watching him cheat on his wife. It was uncomfortable.
Third it was a little too explicit. As the founder/admin of a fan site dedicated to him I know he has younger fans. I don’t think this video sends any of the right messages.
Overall the video felt like porn. It was not entertaining and left me feeling disgusted. I’m pretty sure this could have been done differently in a way that doesn’t give me a negative view of my favorite artist. I don’t think I’ll be watching it again anytime soon.

In the whole, I feel like I’ve been let down by a friend. With William Control being my favorite musician, I feel somewhat embarrassed to admit so, because of the poor quality of the album and especially because of the artist. I feel torn over this in such a strong way that I am even considering taking a short leave from running the site to think over everything. I will be back; I can’t lie Hate Culture is still one of my favorite albums.

Emmy has a Movie Ticket!

Due to popular demand from friends, I have created a new and awesome blog for everything movies! Movie reviews, updates, news, and more!

http://emmyhasamovieticket.blogspot.com/

What it's like to feel real...

Sometimes I forget what it's like to feel human. I sometimes feel like I don't even exist. I just want to feel real again.

Solomon Kane (2009) Review

Based on the character created by Robert E. Howard (creator of the character Conan), Solomon Kane is a sort of origin story for the main character. After learning his soul belongs to the devil, he renounces violence and becomes a man of peace. But when a family who take him under their wing is attacked, and their daughter taken, he must fight to save her life, his soul and to free the land from a growing evil.
Although violent, the movie is not overly gory which makes it enjoyable for a larger audience.

Over all I found the movie to be rather enjoyable and although not amazing nor award winning, it was a good movie to just sit down and watch. The special effects were not as cheap looking as I originally though they might be and the action was just right, not overdone.
I will admit I started watching it with low expectations. A movie that was supposed to be released and has been with the potential of being a straight to DVD release always gives me pause. But this outdid my expectations and had me hooked til the end.
The cast of it I thought was brilliant with James Purefoy (Resident Evil, A Knight's Tale) taking the title role and Rachel Hurd-Wood (Perfume: the Story of a Murderer, Peter Pan) playing the ethereal Meridith, the girl Solomon is bound by oath to save. All the actors did an amazing job and played their roles convincingly.
I can only hope that possibly Solomon Kane will see at least a limited theatrical release in the US.

This Much I Know is True

I hate living.

I know I always say it but I really do. I can't ever do things good enough for anyone. My parents don't like me and neither do my own friends. I feel so alone anymore it's not funny.

Everyday I consider just ending it all. But I don't have the guts.

I'm so fucking pathetic. I really am.

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I pretty much just got dumped by my once best friend. Losing a friend has never hurt this much before.